I'm sorry I haven't been writing, I've been weepy and looking for things to look at... spending time looking out the window, at pretty things on pinterest, at the flowers from my mom's retirement party... I'm fine, not doing much but preparing for all of the end-of-school events that seem to crowd in these months of May and June...field days, field trips, birthday parties to go to, birthday parties to plan, graduations, with this belly to work around. My husband said this morning that he thinks I am proud of the suffering I am doing. I do not know if he was teasing or not but feel very slighted and also slightly pathetic if it is true, that I am somehow bragging about my corpulence and my headaches and so on and so forth. and then I wonder again about my inability to engage in self-care and what the hell that is all about. . . if Sister Deborah Joseph and Chakra Carol are both pushing me to interact with my divinity, and the divinity of the world, why in the world am i not listening? and taking action? My god, I can hardly even feed myself these days...I seem to be eating solely so that the babe is nourished. . . that is certainly not the kind of interaction/action that will move me forward in this walk. happy moms, happy kids and the so on . . . I've GOT to get out of the ditch.
meh. Its been cold here for the past two days, I'm feeling it in my bones. . . maybe its just that simple. I can warm when it does...
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
Sorry sack.
Posted by Kate Hall at 2:44 PM
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that cold shuts me down hard. i am not prepared or willing to be cooperative or flexible or productive when it is cold. i've got a birthday to plan this month too, and I literally had to give myself a talking to to get the invitation sent, as for everything else that needs to be done, I'm hoping for a sunny patch.
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