Sunday, February 22, 2009

Preservation of Luminosity

Here am I, in all my pearlescent glowflow- bundled in several layers of wool, J's enormous thick athleticsocks, pumas, polishing off a bag of smartfood, all to battle the rainychill of the weather. Can you feel the damper on the glow?
I'm working on it, while the baby sleeps and the husband is off finalizing plans for our new future together. Its such a large transition for us to make and so many belief systems to get through. Do I actually let go of my money issues at some point? Do I insure him for a million dollars so I can exist if his plans fall through? heh. What will I do if I don't have a constant strain/stress on my life and spirit because of monetary stricture? Will I qualitatively change? quantitatively? What kind of mother will I suddenly have time to be without all that worry? Or will I just find something else to fill up that void?

-shamelessly picked up phrase from russel's latest post about aethelwold


Mama Mama Quite Contrary said...

I'm relieved to see that I am not the only one who has thought about insuring her husband.

Love your blog!