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Friday, April 5, 2013

After: five minutes friday...


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http://lisajobaker.com/2013/04/five-minute-friday-after/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+thegypsymama+%28thegypsymama%29



-you write for five, don't overedit, and post. and thats all that it is.  i am trying to write more!
thats what she wrote up there, and thats my high def way of showing it to you...
but I'm going to write for five minutes on "AFTER" in response or because of the gypsymama's linkaging...

here goes:

After .


I tend to follow, is how  I began it. and I'm right away filled with uncertainty about the truth inherent there, but it is how I feel, as the mama of three, one teeny still.  There is a brood I have and they tend to the running, these days.  I cluck and ruffle my feathers and waddle around behind them.  It is hard to value oneself as highly as we should.  Some days I can barely raise my head above the laundry piles, or to respond to the man of the house. (makes him sound like a caveman, but he is not, except occasionally) :) But I have come to realize lately that I can't wait until after the children are grown, after they have left the house to do those things which are the stuff of dreams... I just can't.  I can hardly see the forest of my dreams these days and it is all part and parcel of itself, an in-folding, ever-folding laundry pile of sheets... what is it that I think is happening after? how long will I wait to wash my hair?! heh. the self-value, self-respect position? the place wherein I value myself enough to care, to take risks, to leave the laundry done or undone as the day calls?
maybe it is this spring... digging me out of my winter home... sending me scuttling from the light... i've grown too heavy in my woolens... what will happen after?

3 comments:

Cassandra Benefield said...

Hello! I'm visiting from FMF! I am your neighbor there, and I wanted to let you know I love how your writing revealed your heart. I loved how your descriptions of the ordinary (spring, laundry, etc.) were insights into the depths of what you are feeling.

I'm ever amazed by how much talent I am finding through this FMF exercise. Your post is just the latest I have found. God bless you today.

MotherOfGooses said...

I am so drawn to before/after pics. Ugly bathroom/stunningly polished room; crooked teeth/straightened teeth; scraggly hair/sleek updo...the in between pictures dont hold my interest however, the renos in process...the hair being sleeked or the dentist doing her work. What "after" am I hoping to be surprised by? What "after" do I anticipate? Or is the intake of breath before the big reveal that holds the promise?

wifemotherexpletive said...

oooh, mother o'gooses... anticipation and promises... good and thought provoking... thanks...