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Friday, September 17, 2010

My G-d, I had two adult conversations. . .

Holy .  REally, in one day, two whole conversations in which there was no phone involved and the kids were only minimally present.  I cannot tell you how wildly stimulating it was.  I'm all aflutter with things to think about and things to tell my husband about my day, and look. i'm even posting about it.
this must be what it is like to have kids in school.  it must be what happens...
is it?
ah.
One of the conversations took place spontaneously in my very own living room and I am hoping I don't have to think about how messy it was for much longer.  I'm thinking the horror is already starting to fade...
I'm leaving at supper tonight to go to my sister's house, for the second sleepover in two weeks.  Last time it was for a wahoo night of her 40th birthday celebration... wonderful.  This time it is so I can be closer to a retreat that I am attending all day tomorrow.  I am going to a Mother's Plunge... I'm excited, full of anticipation, wondering what it will hold.  A day of meditation, quietude, conversations.  Without the first two, i might float out the window with the crazy of all that conversation. . . really, how much stimulation can a cave lichen take?
- along with the faltering bumblebee in autumn motif, i am also the cave lichen.  I AM THE CAVE LICHEN. 
think of me.  think of how much I'm going to be thinking of you. . . all day... when i'm supposed to 'not' be thinking... dig? 
i am fine with myself, lichen or not, and i am fine with the work i am doing, distraction or not, and i am working on it, this being fine thing.  I HAVE to work on it, because it certainly is not a natural state of affairs so much . sometimes the work gets damn old, and quietude is less a choice than a move towards morbidity and distress and I think that has been where I've been living in terms of the school dilemma.
I am ready to move on.

5 comments:

The Maven said...

That retreat sounds fantastic, you cave lichen, you! Enjoy your fa-bu-lous weekend. If the uninterrupted conversations are any indication of the next couple of days, you're in for a lot of fun! I'll be thinking of you as I break up fights and try to get a word in edgewise *sigh*

*just* said...

I was thinking similar thoughts... playgroup was Wednesday, I made jam with a friend yesterday, and today there was you! What an amazing thing it's done for my sanity. Must impromptu stop again - really must!
And what living room mess?

Jen said...

This makes me smile. Hooray for your conversation, hooray for your messy living room, hooray for cave lichen. Hooray. Have a great plunge.

Abbie said...

Real adult conversations, not involving a phone or me buying something happen maybe once a week for me (outside of my husband of course!).
I hear ya on the cave lichen. Glad you had such a great day!!

Mama Mama Quite Contrary said...

Sounds lovely! I'm in the midst of Katrina Kenison's book as I write. What a coincidence!