throwing up... is so hard to do...

seriously, have i mentioned feeling distanced from my own emotions ever? hmm.. well, this whole 'let him go' thing of sending my kid to kindergarten in a less-than-stellar-woodtoyFree environment is making me sick.  My skin is all erupting with dryness and for me, with an unimaginably good history of skin, is totally teenangsty all over the place. I am constantly burping.  I feel swollen and nauseous all the time.  and i am NOT pregnant. at all.
My misdirection plan for dealing with the loss of my five year old to the wilds of public school is working. I am obsessed with the dryness, rescue remedying myself several times a day, and doing the laundry for the entire neighborhood.  Without the reminder of the screaming two year old, I would not be eating.
Things are unraveling .
Tonight is the first PTO meeting .  Should be pretty.  I'm going to be the mutterer in the back.
look for me.