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Wednesday, April 20, 2016

Vacation Week and I'm delirious...

I'm in the midst of kid-vacation and I'm not sure I'll get to writing here again this week, and I'll be sorry not to, as it's become therapeutic to feel connected to the world after so long in hiding...  So, whilst the father of the children has them all at soccer practice and for a sleepover (in the middle of the week!), I am just dropping a note.

I went to see Chakra Carol today (in the middle of school vacation week! )... and so, feel very shiny and newborn and now am heating up leftovers for the night of sunshine-y movies ahead.  Tomorrow I go to an animal shelter to meet some puppies and hope that one will come home with me. ... oh, that's a thriller... i've got my fingers crossed, but we'll see...

Carol tells me to be less judgmental about my thoughts... and that all people, everywhere, are obsessed with what others think of them.  How do you best strengthen your inner reserves? How do you stand more firmly on your own?  How, after fourteen years of thinking every minute of someone else's opinion, do you grasp what it is YOU think? I didn't think I was in hiding, putting my brain down for the past decade, but, it sure feels like that now...  solamente.

I want to channel me some Katharine Hepburn.  She wore pants, damnit.

these are tricky times.  And I am overwhelmed all the time lately by the choices I have made, and they just keep coming and coming... and I am also overwhelmed by color all the time lately and I have NO IDEA what that one is about. but I completely love it.  COLOR, my god, COLOR!!! I don't know if I need to paint every room in the house or just start using my pastels and my paints more...

i've got one canvas that i've been adding to for ages and its just a big shloppy mess at this point... but i tellyou, i literally feel like a rockstar when i've got paint on my skin...
its probably toxic and i'm hallucinating slightly, but damn, its good.

cheers to vacation week.
cheers!

3 comments:

Anne Bowie said...

PAINT baby PAINT!

MotherOfGooses said...

Let the paint lead you ...any puppy news?

Kate Bowie said...

mog, no puppies.. i'm concerned about breed because of my chickens and all the pups had terrier in them, which are bird attackers... so cute and delirious though...