My nearly eighteen month old just announced, 'bob'. and thats his first try at something besides 'ma, ma, ma..' which seems to stand for all things. all. so, bob is a big step forward and I'm very curious about what the hell it is going to be.
this is the same child who has not slept a full night since his birth, and when he is sleeping, finds it most comfortable to be perpendicular to the nearest adult...otherwise he is a serious zen master.
my nearly four year old asked me this morning what would happen to him if I (the mom) went to God while he and his brother and father stayed here. ITs a mind-blowing world. I did tell him he'd be okay, Daddy would take care of him and a list of women would be here to give him love. It was a nice list to make on the way to preschool but left me driving very carefully and feeling a bit shaken by potential, i suppose. It is a mind-blower.
I'm glad that I can hear, more than glad. I do say thank you all the time and it is never far from my mind, either in worry or in gratitude. I'm glad that I have found some prayerful aspect to my self again, I hope for more than simple lottery tickets, I wish Aslan could keep me company during the daylight hours. I am working on it. I am working on it.
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