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Thursday, March 4, 2010

sexy is as sexy does...

I've never had a serious problem with my body image. I don't think too much about it, never weigh myself unless I'm pregnant and don't look in the mirror unless I am brushing my teeth. I HAVE fluctuated between a size 12 and a size 4 and I'm now sort of hovering in the 8 range.... but I am downright sexy.



right.


on my insides, on good days, I am a venerable pin-up, regardless of what color corduroy I am sporting- or how much turtleneck action there is...
I learned this past year how little I am a pinup on the outside, and it threw me all out of wack. I was shocked! I think I gave up so long ago on being the 'put together' pretty girl that I have just given it ALL up, now. All I need is for my husband to want to get me naked... and he obliges. . .

I am much more comfortable being naked, when it comes to sexiness... all that hemline, waistline damage is just too much. the body gets all chopped to pieces and curves get all cut in half and please, arcs are fine, but not when foreshortened.
even my baby belly is smooth and part of my curvatures when I'm not trying to manipulate it into something it is not. for chrissakes I have had TWO babies. enough!

My husband dreams of my wearing skintight jeans, a deep v-neck sweater (preferably red) and lots of gold dangling into the cleavage. really. well.


All my sexiness is on the inside, however... and not every day... and clearly, not tied to how much actual sex i currently have.
when i was younger, i had a tremendous amount of sex. enough to make you blush. really. with lots and lots of people, some of whom I have now completely forgotten. I apologize for your blush... I have no blush left in me.. whew...

Part of the problem with that pinup photo shoot that I did was that I felt so damn awkward and it was only afterward when I took off all that pinchy stuff and put my big oxford shirt back on that I felt so damn sexy.
So much of sexiness has to do with the internal, don't you think? at least, for women...
men, on the other hand, seem to go for t&a... as a male friend says, like an old car, you like what you like and you decide what problems you can live with...

7 comments:

Athena said...

Amen sister. Although the tight jeans and red sweater and jewels and lip gloss -- those are definitely where it's at for this pin-up. In the oxford I simply feel like a man, which in the sack is not an altogether bad thing. Blush.

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Mama Mama Quite Contrary said...

Reminds me of an episode of Oprah I saw yesterday... while the kids were awake...

Viv said...

"Like an old car..." Nice.

Sexy on the inside is a beautiful thing.

wifemotherexpletive said...

athena... the oxford was J's.. so big, so smelly and all his. . .
Mama, I saw O's face yesterday for the first time in decades it seems, but have no idea what she was saying...
Viv... vroom...

Still Life With Coffee said...

I totally agree that it is all in how you feel on the inside. For sure. Some days are definitely better than others.

thisnewplace said...

when I was married, my husband wanted me to dress a certain way. Sometimes he wanted me all covered up and frumpy, and others, to be with short skirts, heels, etc. It depended on where we were going (yes, he was controlling). When I moved out and we got divorced, I threw away pretty much all my clothes and got a new wardrobe. I found I had my own sense of style and i liked it. It definitely helped me with my body image!