Tuesday, June 29, 2010

damn spot

well, after the third night in a row of a very hot little boy, very hot very hot, i am now clinically insane. i write this to you while the mickey mouse clubhouse takes care of my kid in a vaguely irritating colorful way. i am so tired that the soles of my feet are aching. ache.
fuck the whole plan for intentional parenting, thats what i say. its too hot, the kid is worrying me and i woke my husband at 5:30 this morning because i couldn't take it anymore and now we have amox. in the house, hopefully it will address whatever the hell gave him a fever for three nights. i hate antibiotics, except that they are like some weird sugar-induced hallucination that feels so damn good. i think this is the second time he's had them this year and so i'm a bit disappointed that i couldn't hang in there but my god, how can i let my kid keep whimpering when there is something out there that kills whatever is going wrong in there? how?
the tv has been enrapturing the older one while i've been tending with washcloths and orange juices fortified with motrin. . .
its so bloody hot, you cannot even get relief with a thunderstorm, just wet.
and cellphones are bad for you. stop using them. good god, we've been told forever that we have to have them in case we break down next to the state penitentiary so we can save ourselves and now evidently they are causing war and rape in the congo and have levels of radiation that the govt. deems acceptable.
okay. the govt. is nothing if not a living breathing example of responsibility to the health of the american people ... just look at our clean water, our health system, our economy based on the wellbeing of all of us, not just a few.
wait, i am goddamned crazy. right.


Mama Mama Quite Contrary said...

I've been in a foul mood the last few days myself and I blame it almost entirely on the heat. Heat + feverish, sick kid I think is worse than my situation of heat combined with two breastfeeding girls. Hope the antibiotics knock it out soon!